Must Be!

of ennui and envy,

is it true, this foulness in me

indeed oh god it must be

i'm doomed and darn! that's all it can mean

run from me, the self is no more trusty;

frankly ole mind's a little dusty

is this what they call ugly?

oh it must be, it must be

lord, you overthinker!

gah, you've lost your blinkers

we're fine, nae- quite alright, my geezer

your nerves are merely too eager

since, beauty lies with beholders

some beholders just tend to be colder

breathe in, breathe out

this fuss can be done without

but what of personality

what of morale?!

remember years ago

when I was frankly just dismal

oh such embarrassment, abysmal-

now,

you'll spiral and I spin

like dancers without cause

cat steps on hot bricks and,

the saviour falls on moss

"oh it must be, it must be"

it could be, but it's not

we're fine, my boy, do trust

we're all just whistling in the dark.

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-samjam

Elaboration:

I tried to word the poem in a very light-hearted and jolly sounding way.... when it's actually about panicking about something extremely trivial like 'being boring' or a sour moment from millennia back. Must Be referring to the conclusions jumped to. The poem is structured this certain way to give a sense of the two contrasting voices in one's head- the nervous gal and the more practical "calm-down-it-doesn't-matter" one. What I find humorous is that neither one of them are necessarily "right" (in the sense of objectiveness...both of them are just my mind- braincells frantically bouncing around like jelly beans)

Literary analysis:

Oooh I also used a bunch of idioms I read recently, just to add to the whole jolly factor.

-beauty lies with beholders

(alluding to fear of being perceived ugly) -cat steps on hot bricks

(cat being the nervous one, saviour being the other voice)

-whistling in the dark

(to make a show of bravery, when one is actually not)

SO yee thas that, thanks for reading, toodles! :)