Tonight

tonight, I can lay

on top of you,

with my arms on your arms,

and my head on your heart;

your chest sighs

I ask if it hurts you,

my body is but

one more weight;

but you say 

you feel lighter,

somehow?

and I smile,

a smushed smile onto your neck.

tonight, I lay on your arms

warmer than ever,

and yet you are a cool breeze

like december wind;

and you ask me 

what I'm thinking-

oh?

nothing 

and i kiss you 

you smile

your smushed smile

right on my lips; 

and i want to get closer, 

but i don't know how to get closer than this.

so tonight i want to sleep on your bones

and swim in your blood,

you say i get too intense sometimes,

it's true.

but tonight, I want to drink you from a bottle,

and feel you in my veins;

and i think, even from there

you'll love me just the same.

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-samjam I've played around with the format enough times and idk. I'll edit it again later. Anyway, this isn't about any particular person nor is it an anecdote. Still it feels disconcerting to put this out, I've kept it with myself for so long. It's one of my favourites and I wanna share the feeling i think it's ok idk I might just delete this ITS 3 AM I BINGE ATE I CANT CARE ANYMORE. ANYHOOW breakdown time - so ms. jam, if this isn't about somebody, what is it about? = ahem ok so it's more like a fanfic poem that I wrote hehe. I just took from times when I felt so comfortable and so loved. The feeling of a safe space. Where you aren't judged for all the intense and weird parts- that's what this is. It's just that snuggly feeling as a poem. It's that feeling when you like someone so much, the thought of them makes you smile. It's just a wholesome sort of reminder to myself that This is what IT should feel like. (my body is but one more weight) You shouldn't have to feel like a burden to someone,

(you..in my veins...love me just the same) Opening up and being honest isn't frightening. and so on. ok enough yapping more sleeping Toodles!